help

yes heyhihello
if someone could like punch me in the face or something and make me do something productive that would be great

help

i wanna play something and watch star trek tng and paint and sleep at the same time

Finished Tawny Man and i knew it was gonna be bad but i didnt expect it to crush my soul so completely

the tears
so many tears

and also im not happy with the ending. at all
maybe its because i ship Beloved and Fitz so much
so fucking much  

I have never felt this broken after finishing a series

so im almost half way trough Golden Fool and jesusfuckingchrist
was this really necessary
why
why fitz
why must you be such a dipshit

just no

goddamnit

so math exam today. again. wish me luck

and all i wanna do i hide somewhere and read

and its not the exam, its that ill have to spend 2 days at mothers boyfriends apartment
it just drains me so much

doin math with mother makes me wanna cry and then go on a killing spree which would end with me blowing my brains out

i trusted mother to wake me up in half an hour but of course she didnt
i slept for like 3 hours

all of that hard work to get my sleeping schedule normal, gone

so im drinking coffee right now because fuck it



hello darkness my old friend 

that feeling like not wanting to do anything but at the same time you do, but dont know what

eh

yes mother, go spend the weekend with your boyfriend and leave me to take care of fresh out of surgery grandma

brilliant

so around new year im getting a new pc, a really good one aand new year is gonna be pretty soon and just soo excited

i cant

Ootd

i have no idea where the shirt is from so yeah

jacket is new yorker

leggings are just your normal black leggings

shoes are deichmann 

the chocker was my mothers 

aaand the bracelets are from allyexpress 

i did try to show the beautiful back the shirt has but i failed miserably so theres that

i think im gonna break down today
havent dont it in a while

so tonight should be ful

must i really listen do the sounds of pleasure coming where the kitchen where my mother and her boyfriend are

i mean come on, at least go in the bedroom for fucks sake

i just slept for like 2 hours and im still so fucking tired

depression, stop, its annoying 

stress makes me depressed and the exam is tomorrow (probably wont pass)
and all i wanna do is hide somewhere and stop existing for a bit

existence is weird

http://www.comingsoon.net/news/movienews.php?id=123084

finally 

i have to do some major cleaning to day cause i kinda let the living room get horrible again so yeah
also the math professor send me some of the tests so that good

well, the cake turned out looking like a horrible mess
and i also blew up a glass full of milk and rum in the microwave by accident

its still in there
just waiting for my mother to find it

i would clean it, but im so fucking tired
so tired 

why must i always bake cakes in the middle of the night
by now i should have learned how fucking exhausting it is

and they always end up ugly (delicious, but ugly)
so thats a bonus

i wanna bake a cake for grandmas birthday tomorrow but the laziness is strong

just made soufflé, i forgot how much i actually enjoy baking

every male sim i try to make in the sims 4 somehow always ends up looking like captain america

can someone explain to me why THE FUCK DO YOU NEED TO BE 20+ TO FILL SHELVES IN A SUPERMARKET
will my shelf filling skill increase in like a year and a half?
i dont understand 

ah yes, look at all the studying im doing

all the studying

not watching lps at all

i need to stop oversleeping, i slept for like 9 hours, i dont have time for that shit

math, why must you kill me inside

why

youre welcome 

so i just eat one of my tongue piercing balls
and it was one of my favourites

such a lovely day

cant i just play the sims 4 and listen to night vale and not do life things

i have come to a point when im pretty much prepared to sell my soul for photographic memory or something like that, even do it would probably do me more harm than good

damn you add, why must you hurt me so

so im pretty much fucked with the school and all

can i not do life

also, say hey to cheetah 

(and yes, i do realise its a monkey) 

i've been doing math for 10 min and im already so tired
just so tired

so im gonna go and cuddle up with coffee and watch some lp minecraft and maybe not feel so shit after

math

i miss my laptop :(

everytime this enormous old overheating piece of crap of a laptop freezes i die a little inside

i was gonna drink coffee but its too late now
ugh

also

DOCTOR WHO

you know whats really annoying?
being tired all the fucking time
all i wanna do is sleep and i have so much to do

maybe my depression is at it again :P

so i have to call some girl about a job
and just ugh
phone calls
the anxiety is strong

what shoes to wear 
cant decide 

so my baby is pretty much gone, he said its not worth getting it fixed  :(
mother is still gonna take it to the shop if theres anything that they can do, if nothing else, i just want my files and whatnot

so yesterday i took a nap next to my laptop and the battery while i was sleeping
and then i couldnt turn it back on
tried everything i could think of aaand nothing worked
so mother is visiting her boyfriend for the weekend and his son is gonna check the laptop out if he can at least figure out whats wrong with it cause i really dont know
and i really hope its fixable, my life is on that goddamn laptop

create-a-sim 4 demo is up and just ugh soo excited about the game

i feel sick, its so goddamn hot

 i've been sitting here for 15min and looking at my room thinking where the fuck to begin

on my living room floor theres and edge that prevents me from placing the furniture right next to the wall and its sooo fucking annoying 

also, ive organised my art supplies and whatnot yesterday, so thats good

still do many things to do

i now have like 3 big boxed that are filled with things i dont know where to put, but i dont wanna get rid of them cause i do use them occasionally and just uuuuggh

i took a nap and now im gonna drink my coffee and then im gonna go and do this shit
eh

1 hour ago i was like hells yeah today im gonna finally clean the living room, organise all the shit and whatnot  and now all i wanna do is take a nap and/or play the sims

bedroom done, hells yeah
but that was easy, the living room is hard
hella hard
things
where do i put them

help

i got the unfuck your habitat app so maybe this will help me with the horrible mess that i live in
and so today im gonna unfuck the bedroom

right after i have my coffee

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-cGCcgnrXRs
here, have this awesomeness

im still feeling shit from last night and now mother is forcing me to go and celebrate the birthday of her boyfriends son
2 hour drive and an awkward weekend, here i come

all i wanna do is play sims and sleep

i have to go and shave
but lazy
so lazy
uunghhh

left eyebrow, why cant you look as nice and clean as the right eyebrow
why

also tomorrow is the elementary school anniversary so that should be mildly entertaining
(would be more if my school mates wouldnt be such weak ass bitches so the party pretty much stops at like 3am and everyone as asleep by 6)

im not sure if what i saw crawling on my floor was a spider or a cricket or something else but i do not feel safe

you dont fully appreciate the ability to breathe trough your nose until you cant
so fucking annoying

and the worst think is that i wake up feeling totally fine, thinking im finally not sick anymore and then 5 min after everything goes back to shit again

i wish i had nicotine patches cause smoking really isnt comfortable right now
hopefully ill get better soon, i have to go gift shopping in like 2 days

true blood s7 spoiler alert

fuck you true blood, fuck you
if you kill of eric i will be so pissed

i also got sick so thats great

i now have a box of things i dont know where the fuck to put

help

i wish i could be outside with light on without all the bugs in the nearby area attacking me

is still so fucking hot even do its like half 9
perfect time for cleaning and reorganising my living room

i really feel like painting but i cant go outside because hella hot and i dont wanna do it inside because paint thinner
and yes, i could just open the windows but then it would also be hella hot inside

opening up a laptop is a very nail breaking experience but at least my keyboard is now clean.ish

mother is going to spend the night with her boyfriend which means i have the upper floor of the house all for myself the whole night
hells yeah

my laptop housing is broken on both sides (right on the usb ports) and i cut myself on this shit so much and its really starting to annoy me

Outfit of the day

hey, look, better quality pictures

do try to ignore the background, its horrible, i know

dress is H&M

shoes are Mass

jacket is New Yorker 

and bracelets are from allyexpress (i have them linked in the last ootd)

attempting to do some oil painting

now all i have to do is wait for like 3 days

its noon and i still hadnt have my coffee
the pain
the pain in my head is so strong

i think i might be addicted

this much communication in the morning before i've had my coffee makes me wanna murder some people

Outfit Of The Day

yes, another
i actually have a lot of ootd pictures i never got around to uploading them (because lazy) so here

i have no idea where the shirt is from (its not mine)

the skirt is New Yorker

shoes are Deichmann (yes, i know, i forgot to put the thingy in) 

and you can find info about bracelets here

fuck i really have to clean

Outfit Of The Day

for the jacket, i just flipped the necklace around 

and you can get it here

and the bracelets

the rings are from H&M

shoes are Mass

pants are Tally Weijl (i ripped them myself)

shirt is C&A

and the jacket is New Yorker 

also, try do ignore the horrible mess that is my room

i have no idea what to do with all my things

help

mother's boyfriend gave me oil paints, so excited :D
also, hells yeah for buying my love

ah yes, awkward time with the family of mothers boyfriend

also, passed the exam. 3th time's the charm

wish me luck for tomorrow, im gonna need it :P

how much coffee is too much coffee?

its only 15.30 and im already so fucking tired and i want to take a nap but i cant because i have to study for the exam tomorrow so i dont fucking fail again and i feel like i dont know shit

send help

say hello to my new love

for some reason i thought merlin had 6 seasons and half way trough the 5ih one i tried to download the next one and there is no next one goddamnit

finding things so watch i seriously starting to become a problem

look, pretty new jewellery c:

it is a little big for me couse i em pretty small 

but overall i really like

and you can get it here

i fucked up
ignored my alarm thinking i would sleep for like 30 more minutes and i woke up at fucking noon
goddamnnit

also here, have this

all i wanna do today is nest in my bed and play games and watch merlin
 but no, i must study

i thought my exam was on monday so i panicked thinking i only have a couple of days to learn all that shit but then i checked the date and its on friday
the relief  

hells yeah season 7 of true blood is heree

im watching After Earth and the thing with the bird is just hella depressing

ah yes, time to suffer

i just remembered i have mini pizzas in the freezer
hells yeah
also i took a nap and i feel better

im one of those people that just kinda buries all the problems and emotions inside so 90% of the time i couldnt care less
but then every couple of months or so i get like a week when everything comes up and the time is now and its really fucking annoying and i really dont wanna deal with all this shit right now
especially when i should be focusing on studying but all i wanna do is cry, draw, paint, cry some more and write

fuck

my first attempt at making macarons was a horrible horrible fail

i felt the urge to clean but now all i wanna do is take a nap
why does this always happen

I now have my very own plant c:

im bleaching my hair and i forgot what a pain in the ass this shit is

watched shame just to see michael fassbender naked, goal accomplished in the first 3 minutes hells yeah

i remember the time when i was like 14 i could get hella drunk and wake up perfectly fine the next morning

and now i was feeling horrible the whole day yesterday 

do not like

the heat
the heat is killing me
cant

i think my natural hair colour might me like a dark blonde/light brown but im not quite sure

i just randomly looked at the time while drinking my coffee and i realised that i woke up at like 6 am
how that happened

i regret not taking a nap

im trying to get into comics and fucking hell this shit is complex

grandma just came home all awesome like on one of those 4 wheeler things that was driven by another grandpa

also, not fair, people never drive me home when they see me walking
they did when i was a child but not anymore
and i was in better condition then than i em now

name: anja
nickname: none 
location: slovenia
height: 160-62 i dont even know anymore 
any pets: so many fucking cats
favourite thing about yourself: im hilarious 
worst habit: does not caring counts?
fun fact: i dunno 

identity, sexuality & personality

gender identity: female 
sexual preference: men
romantic preference: what does that even mean 
kinsey scale score: 2
relationship status: single
myers/briggs type: entp
hogwarts house: slytherin ayy

routine

early bird or night owl: night owl, but i try to have a normal schedule 
morning routine: wake up make coffee drink coffee
bath or shower: shower
first thought in a morning: whats the time coffeecoffeecoffee
last thought before falling asleep at night: i have do idea

school/work

do you work or are you a student: student
where do you work/study: kinda home-schooled i guess 
what do you do: i don’t
where do you see yourself in 5 years: probably asleep 

habits (do you…)

drink: occasionally 
smoke: yeah
do drugs: sometimes
exercise: haha no
have a go-to comfort food: no, not really 
have a nervous habit: i kinda scratch the skin on the sides of my nails if that makes sense. also playing with my tongue piercing 

what is your favourite…

physical quality (in yourself): dont really have one, my eyes are ok i guess 
in others: depends on the person 
food: pizza?
drink: coffee
animal: i like big cats and bunnies 
artist/band/group: disturbed 
author/poet: dont really have one
tv show: so many. just so many. supernatural, doctor who, star trek tng...shit like that 
actor/actress: dont have one 

look at me actually doing something productive

im gonna try to do this photo of the day thing in attempt to improve my photography skills and what not
bear in mind that my camera isnt all that good so theres only so much i can do

so, heres the todays photo

ah yes, walked up a very small hill today, almost died, so i think im good for like a year or so

how can i feel both sleepy and energised

i kinda got in a mood to clean so i drank some coffee for a little boost and now i feel more sleepy than before
the fuck

i want to dye my hair (no idea what colour) but then again im really starting to wonder what my natural colour looks like, i havent really seen it for a least 5 years

fuck vampire diaries for killing the only mildly entertaining person (and i dont mean bonny)

already got a goddamn cricket in my room
fuckidy fuck fuck

http://xaxor.com/photography/surreal-photography-christopher-ryan-mckenney-part-2.html
beautiful 

cleaning a horrible room when its hot?
-10/10 would not recommend

now i dont feel like cleaning anymore
but i must
njeeeeeeh

today i shall clean cause this is getting horrible
so many plates
plates everywhere

just saw two goddamn cricket in the hallway
it has begun

something went wrong with my tablet and it restored itself to factory settings
so thats fucking great
so many things lost

well tumblr just ruined supernatural series finale for me
is it so hard to fucking tag spoilers goddamn you

I sunbathed for like an hour today and i dont understand how people do it i really dont
uncomfortable positions, the heat, bug attacks and its just so fucking boring
maybe i was meant to be always hella pale

Do you think i could hire someone to do grown up phone calls for me?

I have many things to do so im gonna go play sims and watch a tv show

im attempting to cut my bangs and damn its a lot harder  to cut them blunt than side-swept 

i think im starting to have a problem 

I have now eaten snails and they were actually pretty good
as long as i dont have to look at them

I finally got my precious laptop back after like a month or so (i totally broke the hinges, the screen just fell down) and it feels so good and a little strange to just like hold and type on it couse i was using my old laptop

my baby if finally home <3

i think mother finally figured out not to speak with me before i have my morning coffee

watched vampire academy and
why, why why could you not just cast bed barnes as dimitri

visitors righ when im baking muffins
great

I started playing thief yesterday and im actually not so shit at this as i thought im gonna be
but im only starting chapter 2 so we shall see

and cut scenes and horribly glitchy but that might be just this old shitty laptop im using now couse i broke both the hinges on my lovely baby and its taking them just about forever to fix it :P

Its a Doll's World

I got bored