Sunday, June 30, 2013

Stupidity

K' so i tell some dumdum that i play games and he asks me if on facebook.

ughhhhhhh
Im slowly spiraling back into depression .
Its worse every day.
At this point all i wanna do is sleep.

I dont have the will to even get out of the bed.
I cant focuses, i cant remember shit.

Goddammit, i dont wanna be in this place again. 

Fucking hell birthgiver, is it really that hard to talk with me without being angry all the fucking time.

Saturday, June 29, 2013

swdehzujkilo

I have a love-hate relationship with sims. I lovelove playing them, but for fuck sake, im still editing my sim and it crashes. FUUUUUUUUUU

Now i remember why i hate sims soo much

I was so excited about the Island Paradise. And everything was fine until i had to update my fucking game.
Ok so it doesnt work a couple of time, i try to do something and it work... oh but it doesnt... I updated and it 's still asking me for a fucking update.

So i reset the computer and i think it FINALLY  works, theres another error.

God-fucking-dammit, kill me now.

Im downloading the patch now, only 51 min left -.-


FINALLY IT WORKS.

Goddammit

I remembered that The Sims 3 have a new expansion pack.

I think Ill cancel the exams for this month, because i cant force myself to study.

Dont know why, but that's how it is.

This is very entertaining

Click it. Click it real good

I really play too much

Forced myself to stop, because i literally feel sick :P
eeh, all i want to do with my life is play games, watch movies/series, buy shit and hang out with best friend.

Why does it have to be so hard :c

Friday, June 28, 2013

What is life?

Been playing Kingdoms Of Amalur: Reckoning for... i dont even know for how long. 5 hours at lest.
Exams are in 6 day.
Why em i like this :c 

Marriage Material

I made butter potatoes, fish and muffins in one hour.

Im turning into a real housewife 

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Whatever

(its about BG)

Dualla, you annoy me very much.
Cant Apollo and Starbuck just be together for fucks sake

You know what would be cool?

If we could download information in our brain.

I have to tests in a week. And god-fucking-dammit i understand nothing.

And they are both on the same day. That makes it even better.

I wish i woudnt be sooo fucking lazy and just start doing shit.

I do not understand that music shit at all, and i still have the whole text book to do for art.

And this BG is not helping me at all. (S02E14 -  what the fuck are you doing Apollo?)

I know right, problems.  

The history is repeating it self.

There is another cricket in the house. Im just in the kitchen cooking and i went to return some shit in the fridge and there he is. In the hallway.
I just pray to god i closed the doors to my rooms. :c

Update 
The cricket disappeared out of the hallway so i went to the storage to put things in the fridge and grab a bear.
And there he is. In front of the doors. So i quickly shut them and think if i sound call for birthgiver to rescue me.
Thank god that she awakened by herself.

But the cricket is still on the loose!

The motherfracker (huehuehue) went towards my rooms and we lost the sight of him.
I just home he went into the bathroom.

Ugh I need help.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

*Puppy Eyes*

Can someone give me money so i can tattoo this shit somewhere on myself? :3

Thank you, birthgiver

So me and my mom are picking cherries on the hill next to our house. And there is also this "building" there, i dont know how its called in english, where we used to put dry grass and shit like that.
So it starts raining (same thing happened yesterday and we waited it out in that building) and she tells me to get under the roof. And so i naturally go in that building. So i sit there, i smoke a cigarette and start wondering where she is. So i go around the building to see if she still picking cherries.
And that i see her running down the hill, towards the house totally forgetting i was still there.

Yeah, thanks birthgiver  

And also all this rain makes me feel that its my obligation to stay in bed and drink tea or hot chocolate or something :P

Bored At Night

                                            So i put on this dark plumy lipstick.
And can we just take a second to laugh at BG for using "frack" instead of fuck. I mean seriously :D

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

ugh -.-

Lets just take a second to appreciate how good em i at fucking things up
yes, i dropped it and the motherfucking shutter/zoom button fell off.

Good job, me.

Anybody knows how to fix this shit?
Could really use some help :P
I tried putting it back on but it doesnt work.
asdfghjklč :c

What the fuck is wrong with this weather?

4 days ago was hot as fuck, and now im wearing my warm sweatpants and long sleeves.
This shit is fucked up

I also started watching battlestar (now that i know where to start) and i pretty nice.

Falling Skies

Fuck you and your cliffhangers.
Gemme moaar

And also there is this spider hanging on the ceiling right above my pillow and i really dont feel happy about that. I was cool when he was in the corner but this will cost him his life.
And just because of him im gonna have to move all the shit i have on the left side of the bed on the right side because i dont plan on sleeping with that motherfucker hanging right at the top of my head.

uh, problems

Damn you don't starve

I just played for like 4 hours. But i forced myself to stop and now im waiting for the falling skies to download (i really like that shit) and i dont know what to do with my self.
I just feel like a dying whale
aaaaahguiihhhhhh

Monday, June 24, 2013

Im a sniper, fuck yeah

Sniper: ghost warrior 2 is pretty cool, even do i fail mission all the time cause im really shit at stealth :P
But i still like it ^^

Lalala UUUU

Sooo its a very rainy day so i feel like cuddling up in my bed. With my cheetah (thats the name of my cuddle pillow, its actually a black monkey but idgaf).
And im gonna have a Harry Potter marathon.

Also i think my boobies got bigger. PRAISE THE LORD

Bored At Night Makeup

So i was bored at night. Again. 
Its kinda smokey eye tip of this. like whatever.
I may or may not upload hd pictures later, it just take forever to get them form my camera to the computer.

K' so the first one is nude lip and than i added little bit of red just for funsies  

And im too lazy to crop and edit them so look at that sexy bottle of Smirnoff i got for my sweet sixteen, cause memories, you know. 
And in like half year ill be able to buy my own booze, fuck yeah :D

Oh and also no foundation or anything like that, just the eye makeup.



Just look how cool my glasses look like. 


Sunday, June 23, 2013

Can we just take a second

and appreciate how fucking awesome DMC is?
its one of those games i could replay million times :D
just like Queen of the damned, i watched it just about gazillion times :D
oh lestat, you so sexy and the music is awesome, i just really hate that stupid bitch Jessie

Idontknowhowtonamethispost

So the full moon is today no wonder ive been feeling so shit.
and i think i read somewhere that is like really big tonight or whatever.
it look normal to me. but kinda red.
omajgod, it is the blood mooooon

Fuck you nature

So when i fall a sleep a couple of hours ago it was raining and it was nice and chilly and i was cuddling in bed with my fluffy "worm" blanket and one of those cuddle pillow animals ^^
And i wake up in fucking heat, the raining stopped and the sun is back and noooo :c

Also there are some people outside that i really now like one of them was going Wooo! before. Damn you neighbors. And theres also this kind of an old man short scream sound... and its always same.
Oh and there was also this strange sound of clapping wings, that woke me up 2 times, cause i thought the bird was in the room.

Just... What. The. Fuck.

Sup

Click it. Click it real good

because pictures describe better how i feel right now than words

Oh tumblr

you always know how i feel.

Games, Fuck Yeah

Gonna replay Devil May Cry, because its like my favorite game and i love the music and i love him :3
But its gonna be little different this time, cause im gonna play with the gamepad and you know not with the keyboard and mouse ^^


I'm also gonna try playing Sniper: Ghost Warrior 2 again, the first time there was a glitch or something and i could go past that point, so maybe this time it will work :P


Eh

I just wanna a lay in bed, cuddle, watch something and nap. But thats not gonna happen.

Thats what i get for not having a boyfriend. Its not like a want one, i just miss sex and cuddling and texting you know.

And its probably gonna take forever until i meet someone else (shyness and ugliness why have you bestowed upon me).

Just eh.

My depression in kinda hitting again today.

And oh, i really wanna color my hair blond again, i miss it :c

Good Morning

I dont remember the last time i was so early and im having coffee cravings.
Ugh. I dont have anymore of those capsule things and im just really craving lungo. I don have cappuccino but i dont wanna drink that shit anymore. Its just soo fucking annoying, its in a little bag (you know) and even when you mix it really really good there are like little clusters of coffee sticking together and its just makes me sick if i get that in my mouth. And its really easy not to see them cause they like hide in the foam and i think you got all of them and you're just eating the foam and BAM sneaky motherfucker is in your mouth.

So if somebody would bring me like one capsule of lungo, i would be very very happy.

Also im hungry but too lazy to get food.

Finished Remember Me

Spoiler alert :)


So the last boss battle was Edge and i did see that coming, just did expect him to be a machine, but still not a big shocker. The madam battle was actualy a lot harder than this one :D
Otherwise i did enjoy the game, but i did love it, i wasnt sad that i finished it, like i was with DMC or Bioshock: Infinitive or Alice: The madness returns :P

And also can we take a second to appreciate all the awesome ear piercings everyone had :D

So yeah. Now to find something else to play :D

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Thanks Mom

That awesome moment after all the fighting you did, mother brings you pizza and bear :3

Stupid Zorn

This Zorn robot is very annoying.
"Where is your backup"
"I use oil while you breath"
and shit like that
All the timee

ha, hes dead now

Gonna Get Shit Done

And by that i mean im gonna try to finish Remember Me.
Fuck studying when you can play games.
Or maybe I'll start with Deus Ex: Human Revolution
Dunno.

Just wanted to share this with you

Clicky Clicky

I promise, its not one of those screaming bitches its really quite cool :D

And you can make it dance.

Shit I bought

Everything was bought in Müller.
So the first thing i got was this fancy ass golden lash curler.
Just kidding, it was like 3€ or something like that and its actually even more shit than the one i got forever ago that was 1€. But hey, it works.

I also got this two nail polishes. I was running out of my old red polish (Catrice 070 Caught On The Red Carpet) which i love and just thought ill try this one. And it was also a lot cheaper :D
For the other one, i dont really like pink, but i liked the color and why not go for something different :) 

The names of the polishes.

Here the nail polish is still wet and yes, i know its all over, thats how i roll.

And i took this picture like 5 min ago. (look at my sexy games in the background njohoho)


OOTD


Shirt: Tally Weijl manymanymany moons ago
Skirt: New Yorker also many moons ago
The shoes: Mass

Im not going anywhere, but there are people working around the house, so i cant really walk around with a big nemesis shirt and underwear :P
And no makeup and my hair is very bleh too and i dont give a fuck. 

The room is lovely like always.


Battlestar Galactica

So im 11 min in and i have no idea whats happening. There's the crazy dude dreaming about some girl and the aliens or robots (not sure yet) are attacking every 33 min.

What em i missing? Em i supposed to watch something before this (i presume i do, because of the all what happened before thingy on the beginning)
And there's also the vampire from Being Human (the us version).

Also, OOTD and what i bought are coming up today, possibly very soon.


Friday, June 21, 2013

Feeling sooo much better

Took a shower and i also took pictures of shit i bought (talking like a bought the whole make up store. nope)
and i also did my nails and took pictures of that too.
Ill upload them later, cause right now im just getting very fucking tired and i believe i shall sleep soon.


yeyeyeye

Finally at home.
And of course my day wouldn't be perfect without seeing my beloved ex school mate, that had a crush on me and probably hates me because i didnt say hi.
Its not my fault im a social retard :P

Okay so plan for the rest of today:
- cigarette (i havent smoked "real cigarettes for ages now, i roll, and they feel sooo big and they also make my throat hurt for some reason :P )
- shower
- Cry marathon (my new favorite youtuber, how could you not love that sexy voice of his ;P)
- Probably gonna do my nails with ma new nail polish (will post pictures)
- Make dinner (nobody cooks for me anymore, thanks mom) or sleep. dont know yet

Im just glad to be home.
And also sorry about all the posts from today, what can i say, i was bored as fuck and the lack of sleep is not doing me any good either.

Okeey, im of to shower.

Eeehh

Im writing all of this shit again, cause somebody ask to borrow my phone for a quick call.
And because im such a nice persona, i gave it to him =P
Ok so, at this point i just wanna lay down somewhere cold and sleep.
Im gonna spend 2 and half hours on the train station, because i dont wanna walk around anymore and i dont have any money left to go on a drink.
Also, i got a coke with my name on it, i dont really care about it, it was just the first i saw, so why not :P
I really dont like being on the train station, really dont wanna see my ex. So im just paranoid. Fuck i hate this place.
And im getting hungry. Thank god mcdonalds takes moneta :P
Eeeeh, 2 h and 18min

K' soo

I have 2 options now. I can run on the train and walk home later in this heat.
Or i could wait here until like 3 o'clock and not walk home in this heat.
Ugh, i just wander what ill do for the rest of the day if i stay here.
And i dont think im gonna make it on this train. And all the other ones from now to like 3pm are those that i would need to get off on a station and go on another train and i really hate doing that, because im always lost as fuck.
So i think im gonna like hang out around all by myself. fuck, this is gonna get boring.
Manymanymany new blog posts coming up

Ugh, now i have to wait

Wish i would have both like crosswords or something like that :P
And when i finnish with this shit im gonna do a little nail polish/make up shopping.
Because i deserve something for today.
Sometimes i really hate summer.
I wish i woudnt have test every month, so i could totally rotate my biorithm around, and be awake the whole night and morning and i would sleep true the heat.
I feel like im miss-spelling everything, god dammit :D
Oh here she is. 7 min late. Telling me i have to wait some more.
Fuck yeah

The heat, o my fucking god, the heat

I ran to the bus, walked in the sun for like 5 min and walked on 3 flights of stairs.
Im hot as fuck and i need a cold shower.
Why u no use anti heat device thingy school?
At least the school is over so its pretty much empty

Trying to look social

So on the train came two of my "friends" and its just akward cuz we have nothing to talk about anymore and eeehhh
Can we just not. I really dont like meeting like ex friends tipe of people cause it just so akward
Uugh people

Gonna blog sooo much today

I dont even care.
It makes me look like i have a life.
Also, feeling little better.
Still dont wanna be here.
K'bye

Somebody end my suffering

First of all, sorry if i misspell (i dont even think this is correct) for i em on my phone and tired as fuck.
I just feel sick. Just got on the train and all i wanna do is puke.
I dont wanna go there and i dont wanna be where people are. I just wanna be in my lovely bed and do nothing (like i dont do that all the time).
And when i finnish with the stupid school shit i have a choise to wait there bored as fuck for the whole day so mother can drive me home or walk on the hill (and a very steep one) to get home. In this heat. And dont forget how shit i feel.
Why are they making me do this shit :c
Eeeeeehhhh. I know i complain a lot but i really dont wanna do this today. Or ever.
Hopefully there wount be shitload of people on the train.
So now im gonna listen to some music trying to mentaly prepar myself for this shit.

Eeeeehhhh

Eeeeeh

I already got tired so i power napped. Ehhhh, i dont wanna goooooo. I know im acting like a child but i really dont wanna.
And all this suffering just because she cant answer one simple question over the mail. 

asdfghjklčćž

Pikachu The Creepy Cat

I swear to god, there is something wrong with this cat.
So, you know i have two rooms. Bedroom and living room. And they're like opposite of each other. So i hear a noise and i just think eh whatever. cats.
And than i go out of the bedroom and i see that the other door open, and i always close the doors.
So i open the doors, turn the light on and i hear a sound of someone moving. And i was i like fuckfuckfuck there must be some dead demon children coming after me (the ring scared me for life).
And there she is.
That little Pikabitch.

dfghjklčsdflgkjdfskl

She has no respect.

Fuck, I'm Slow

Been doing this blogging this for i dunno how long now and i just noticed that the time on my posts is all wrong.
So that's fixed now.

Why Can't I Sleep Like A Normal Person?

That moment late at night, when you should be sleeping because you need to get the fuck up in the morning and be somewhere (i dont wannaaaa ;c) and you decide not to sleep. And you will also regret this in the morning when you're tired as fuck and need to get up and get ready and all that shit. And than suffer.

So, yeah. Thats what im doing today.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Anti-social me

Could someone maybe kidnap me or something for like 3 days please? :c
Tomorrow i have to go to ljubljana (kill me now) to talk with a teacher about my exam because is sooo hard for her to mail me with the answer.
And it would be all fine, i just really hate going to school. With all the people there. Judging and shit.
And the heat, o my god, the heat.
I dont even know how ill deal with that.

So in pretty much gonna go on the train in the morning (almost 2 hours), go to school, talk with her for 5 min, go to the train station and go home.

Fuck this shit.

sdfghjk

Why do we need sleep?
I havent slept yet and i just wanna do shit, you know, i dont wanna waste my time sleeping :P
and by doing shit i mean watching massive amounts of tv series and youtube. and maybe even playing something. Fuck, i have a very exiting and eventful life.
As it seems Pikachu found a new favorite place to be. Under my bed.
I let her out of the room like 5 min ago and the second i opened the doors, she was right back here.

Crazy Cat

So its almost 4 am (fuck yeah, sleeping problems) and i open the doors just to go pee.
And suddenly my cat just comes running in the room and goes under the bed.
The fuck Pikachu? (yes she is called pikachu and yes shes a girl. i dont even caree)
And before that, there was a dog on the road just going insane, i could see him because its you know, night, but he sure did make some crazy sound.
And even later than that, there were dog making howling sounds and shit for like half an hours.

The fuck is wrong with you today animals?

Also, i suddenly got an urge to play some games, i haven't played anything for a couple of days now actually :P
Must be the fucking heat.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

That awesome feeling when your computer has been running for  couple of hours now and its not even warm, unlike before, when you could probably cook some eggs on it.

Also, the heat is fucking killing me

poor dirty thing

So i just got my laptop back from the ventilator cleaning, they said it was really dirty, poor thing :P

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Fuck you summer

The heat is killing me. -.-

Memories

So i got bored at night (before the whole motherfucking cricked incident) and i did the makeup i used to wear all the time, just too see how i would look with it now :D
Fuck yeah, panda eyes :D
But i do sometimes miss my whole "metal" look, maybe ill start wearing it again, than maybe people wont be so shocked when i tell them i listen to metal :P

Going Insane

I can not deal with this shit anymore. I just can not.
Ok, so i hate bugs. Night butterflies, grasshoppers. All that shit.
And you know, summer is here so its hot as fuck.
And so i put a web on my living room window to keep all that monstery shit out of the room, cuz you know if the window is closed is hot as fuck.
But i dont have the net on my bedroom window, because its too up to put it on. And i cant be there without getting bugs in my room or die of heat.
So im just chilling in my living room and suddenly a fucking cricked appears out of nowhere. There is nothing that i hate more that those jumping grasshopper motherfuckers. And it just fucking appeared again right fucking next too me.
Its been doing this the whole fucking time. I move on one side of the room, it there.
I go on the other side, its fucking there again. Hopping around.
CAN NOT DEAL WITH THIS SHIT.

Thank god i finally manged to kill it, with a lot of screaming involved.
The jumping just freaks me out.

And thats the reason i hate summer sometimes.

Monday, June 17, 2013

Silly Time

I just suddenly realized that its 3.07 am.
What. The. Fuck.
It was midnight like 5 minutes ago

Ombre nails

I got bored and decided to do something fun with my nails :)
This is how it looks like. Yeah, i know i have nail polish around my nails, i was just too lazy to clean it off :P

So those are the nail polishes i used. The coral one is from s-he and the purple one is essence, but unfortunately it was limited edition many many moons ago :)
And because i dont have a make up sponge or whatever i just cut off part of the normal cleaning one.  
 The names of the polishes.

OOTD

Another outfit of the day :)
The shirt is from New Yorker 
The tights are just normal black ones 
And the shoes are Converse All Stars

Im wearing my hair el natural for a change, i just did feel like curling it :P
And excuse the horrible room, its always like that when i get ready ;P 


Sunday, June 16, 2013

Computer problems

Just tried to open up my laptop so i could clear the fan out, but i couldn't open the damned thing.
I guess Ill have to pay it for someone to do it for me, its overheating like crazy :P

Dreams

Another strange dream what would make a good scifi movie :D
and fuck, its hot, the summer is coming

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Memories

I miss the times when we lived together :c
There is no way to express my craziness anymore
  

Dreams

I took a nap, and my god, that was a nice dream :D
I guess my brain is telling me i should get laid, 7 months is a long time :c

Pain, oh the paiiin

My head started hurting yesterday and i foolishly thought its gonna start if i take some pills and go to sleep.
Oh how wrong i was. Woke up with a headache and its getting worse :c
Its always like that. It just starts hurting one day and than in doesnt stop for days.

Friday, June 14, 2013

This Don't starve game shit is really fucking addicting, i could play it for hours. And i did. And i want to play it for some more. But i cant. Must study. I'll probably play some more.
Our living room is literally filed with those grave candles, we got more that 200 :P

Don't Starve

I think i found my new addiction :D

Thursday, June 13, 2013

What to play?

I feel like playing something platformish :D maybe something like lara croft :P
anyone knows any good games? :D
Just came back from the funeral and all that shit that comes with it.
Fuck, that was exhausting.
Im just happy to be on my couch, with a cigarette and without the killer heels

Wednesday, June 12, 2013


so this happened today :/
tomorrow is the funeral and stuck with this bloody think on my hand
so what happened was that my mother closed the car door on it. 
yeah, thank you very much, mom
at least i can still normally hold my controller, so i can play games :D 

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I em quite enjoying this game :D
God, i really do hate visitors.
everybody wants to see me, and i look like shit, not ready for public at all
its not cool
also, dark souls prepare to die? poop

Just watched the last part of the Game of Thrones the end was quite lovely :)
im thinking about reading the books, i dont really feel like waiting for like a year to find out what happens :P

OOTD

Sup everyone, another ootd, because why not ;P


No make up, no hair (thats why im wearing a beanie and sunglasses).
The pants are Lonsdale, the shirt is from New Yorker and i think the beanie is too. I bought the glasses like 4 days ago, dont remember where.
Im just going for a quick run for cigarettes and im just feeling too lazy to make myself look pretty.
So yeah :D

Im just lying here in bed, not being able to sleep and thinking. In two days there's gonna be his funeral. And my brain just cant comprehend that i wont see him ever again. His body is now ash and thats it. Hes gone. Forever. I dont think I will miss him, as harsh as that sounds, but its hard to love someone thats been pretty much verbally abusing you your whole life.
It just makes me wonder, what happens after? Is it just darkness, nothingness? Are we really forever gone?
Is that really all there is to it?
I dont believe in God, but it would be really nice to believe that theres something after all of this.

Fuck yeah, deep shit :D

Monday, June 10, 2013

Outfit Of The Day



I know right, the room is beautiful :D but i cant help myself, every time i get really everything just magically becomes messy :c
And some new shoes, from Mass. I dont normally wear sandals, but they looked cute and why not :) 

I can not deal with this anymore. i just can not.
but i have nothing else to play :c
and whyyy, why u no work
how the fuck em i suppose to do this shit
cant. cant no more
I em losing my mind with this boss fight, it doesnt fucking work -.-
the last thing i have to do is repeatedly press A i have have done it a million fucking times it just wont work :/
QTE i fucking hate you sooo much
Every time i try to go to bed early i wake up in the middle of the night and cant sleep. How cool is that?

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Im here in my "living room" (i have 2 rooms at home, bedroom and "living room") and im playing remember me and im also cursing at the laptop very loudly. The window is wide open and doors into the house are like right next to my window. So some people came to visit (i didnt even notice because i was so into the game)
and they probably heard me screaming.
lovely
Yesterday I bought a pc wireless xbox controller, my thumb already hurts, but is pretty awesome :D
 
And my biorhythm is back to one of a normal human :D
I dont think i have been awake for 30 hours ever before :P

Saturday, June 8, 2013

and im just so fucking tired
Oh god, i dont know what to do, my mother is crying and i just dont know...
I just found out my grandfather died...
Started playing Remember Me I do quite like it so for, its different from any game I played before :P
The only problem I have is that the sound is glitching like crazy -.-

And again, I was awake the whole night and i will try to be awake during the day. Hopefully i will actually do it this time :D

Friday, June 7, 2013

Thursday, June 6, 2013

I just woke up, my power nap has gone horribly wrong, i didnt even hear the alarm :P
I would say i did not miserable fail at my food. Pigs in a blanket, i think thats what they're called. The only problem was, that my "blanket" was rock hard. oh well, maybe next time :)

Also, this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjmnot3hSUg
but i would change the lyrics into my new found "fear of clustered holes". i just can not forget those images. and yet, i have this strange urge to look at them again.
google is sometimes not your friend.
Im trying to cook/bake (yeah its 1 in the morning, thats how i roll) and i have idea what the fuck em i doing. yeys

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

I googled  cluster holes. now i cant stop thinking about it, i think its the most disgusting this i have ever seen, really.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

I woke up with fucking swollen eyes from crying and drinking and just shit :P
But i dont feel depressed anymore, just bored now. and i wish i wouldn't self harmed, but whats done its done
i just wonder, you know, how long would it take for my friends to know that im gone. you know?
could someone maybe talk to me? i really need it....
listening to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vo_0UXRY_rY
watching this: http://thenicestplaceontheinter.net/
drinking wine and crying like a little baby
been self harm free for almost 2 years now. well, not anymore

Monday, June 3, 2013

yep, wine really does hit the spot
Just... shit. just absolute shit. I dont remember the last time i was feeling so... tired
Dunno why, but I'm having a depression episode. It fucking sucks. :/
Why the fuck can't i make myself clean? Its not even a lot. But nooo, better drink coffee first, smoke some cigarettes, just one more episode of doctor who. Im horrible. 

Sunday, June 2, 2013

I actually cleaned my work and makeup space. Too bad the rest of the room is horrible. And also the bedroom. Must. Clean.
Tomorrow.
Just finished watching Jack the Giant Slayer. I must say i quite enjoyed it, i thought its gonna be a lot shittier :P
Also, another 2 hours of my life wasted, as i should be studying.
Can someone tell me how to make myself do such a tortures thing? Because i really dont know.

Saturday, June 1, 2013

strawberry smoothie and yes i look like shit, because technically i havent left the bed yes.
what can i say, forever lazy 


Just finished Alice: The Madness returns. I was a pretty long game, but in the end felt short :c
now i dont know what to play anymore :P