i wanna play something and watch star trek tng and paint and sleep at the same time

Finished Tawny Man and i knew it was gonna be bad but i didnt expect it to crush my soul so completely

the tears
so many tears

and also im not happy with the ending. at all
maybe its because i ship Beloved and Fitz so much
so fucking much  

I have never felt this broken after finishing a series

so im almost half way trough Golden Fool and jesusfuckingchrist
was this really necessary
why
why fitz
why must you be such a dipshit

just no

goddamnit

so math exam today. again. wish me luck

and all i wanna do i hide somewhere and read

and its not the exam, its that ill have to spend 2 days at mothers boyfriends apartment
it just drains me so much

doin math with mother makes me wanna cry and then go on a killing spree which would end with me blowing my brains out

i trusted mother to wake me up in half an hour but of course she didnt
i slept for like 3 hours

all of that hard work to get my sleeping schedule normal, gone

so im drinking coffee right now because fuck it



hello darkness my old friend 

that feeling like not wanting to do anything but at the same time you do, but dont know what

eh